To the OP:
I thank you for creating this thread & spreading unconditional love to all the anons here.

To the anons in this thread:
May satisfaction, fulfillment, joy & peace find you one day where you need it most.

All I have left to say is despite our individual traumas, trials & tribulations, one day it will all make sense so that you'll be resolved of guilt, confusion & worry.

2nd attempt, passed my previous 4 day streak, I hope maybe this could help an anon here possibly
I realize after reading some in these threads where i messed up
>thought about it like an endurance challenge
>allowed myself to be bored, especially on weekends and friday
>anticipating how good the release would feel (set myself up to fail from the beginning)
>no true goal, see below
I struggled a lot with urge during this time, this attempt was months ago

I was inspired by something I heard said in a video weeks ago
something to the effect of "they cant take your soul, you have to give it to them"
I pondered on this for a while then forgot about it

well Sunday right before bed it hit me like a falling rock
I was basically fearing for my soul, not sure how to describe it better
this experience has solidified my resolve a lot
ever since then my urge was down almost completely, however
>I haven't stopped thinking about women, I still want to have sex
>I have seen porn in passing but I haven't felt any urge from this yet
>had a few insights into why I feel certain ways, too vague to explain much

as for the effects of my abstinence, I feel like I am flipping between many different channels of feelings
I have glimpses where I feel like I AM actually gonna make it, I feel confidence I haven't had basically my whole life
but a lot of time I still spent feeling either callous indifference to my fate or sometimes straight up hating the world

being realistic with myself, I'm not sure how long this will last
im not sure how much this aligns with /srg/