I've been inconsistent with the gym. I'm a night nurse in the emergency department at a relatively active hospital.
my coworkers touch me much more when I've been to the gym that week. I never get touched by my male coworkers, but the female ones can seemingly sense when I'm on my game. the CNAs are anywhere from 19 to mid 20s. nurses are anywhere from early 20s to 40.
women *never* touch you on accident.
I'm engaged. long before I was engaged, I disliked female attention. I know when they're flirting. I know what the laughs mean, what the eyes mean, what the hair tossing means. I understand the leading jokes, even from the married women. I want them to leave me alone. they wouldn't have looked at me before, I don't want their attention now. I understand this is a dysfunction that I earned in 7th grade. fuck it, I don't care.