Once you realize that only men can love it all makes sense.

Forsen plays like a maniac for a couple of days and goes from bronze to gold. Just like that.
Meanwhile I have been goldstuck for 5 years. Literally the same rank, gold 2, since march.

Is this what it feels like? The deep sinking feeling of inadequacy.
That no matter how hard I try, I will never achieve more or better?

Father was a heroin addict and my mother lives on welfare and asks me for money