>>64172132
this but in an ar15 kind of way
i contextualize my life by week: i turn 30 in a few weeks and when i look back on all the ar15 moments ive had i like to feel accomplished but in reality all my ar15s are the same and they shoot equally as others, if not better in some aspects but in the grand scheme probably worse than most. its ok and ive accepted it, made some range safety officers along the way and had meaningful groupings with other shooters, but nothing thats stuck. do i long for a range membership for life? yea, but do i know deep down i probably dont deserve it with my current lifestyle and attitude to the opposite enthusiast.
yet i keep trucking along, hoping to improve myself as a marksman and LARPer