>Want to draw
>Have more than 72 hours of wholly uninterrupted free time
>Open up.drawabox, Loomis and Brigman pdfs alongside a couple of youtube tutorials
>Think about drawing heavily but dont do it
>Keep not doing it
>Now less than 24 hours of.u interrupted of free time remain and still not s bit closer to drawing than i was before
>Even if i did draw it takes like 2000 hours to be good so there will be no reward for doing it instead of thinking about doing it.
Why am i like that?

I have no visual library, no mind's eye and the opposite of a natural gift when it comes to visual arts.
I cant even imagine anything and my hand is unsteady. I grip my pencils like chrischan does.


What do i do? I really want to draw and have wanted to be able to do it since forever.

I'll do anything to get better.