I think I might become a Satanist
>Satanism is only for edgy 14 year olds
That’s true. But I’m a fucked up manchild with severe emotional problems. And any time I prayed to God, I was forsaken. I received no response, no sign at the most dire times in my life. I don’t think God exists anyway, so that puts The Devil and God on equal footing. I might as well see if I can placebo myself into believing the dark lord of this world has favoured me. Then I can take the darkness inside my head and use it as fuel.