>>82466915
>i just have become assertive and direct
I figured I would have to do this. I think my mind just worries about power imbalances of always being the one to initiate contact with people and having no one talk to me first, but honestly does that even matter if I make a friend? I guess not. How are you keeping up with your homework anon? How many classes are you taking?

>>82466605
What are you talking about anon
Who are you even referring to?

>>82455451
>It's not that they don't care, it's that they care too much.
Doesn't really reassure me or make me feel any better. None of that matters when she ghosts me and I can't talk to her anymore, you know? She removed herself from my life, so she basically doesn't exist anymore from my perspective. So why would any of that matter to me?

>>82455492
>You can't be you, it's always "you have to __" "you can't __" and if you ask for some kind of reason it's just "because I said so"
You should've been around when I posted the thread about me punching a hole in the wall because my parents made me cut my hair, lol. Irrational reaction, I know, but being alive for so long without any agency is starting to make me crack.
>What causes this
Like she said, trauma. It's how she learned to cope with things when people fucked her over. I can imagine why she acts like this if I try to imagine what people did to her in the first place. Still, it's not an excuse for mistreating people!

>>82455495
Did you do that to friends? People you loved? Do you have any stories of avoidance you're comfortable with sharing?