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>make myself retarded and eschew all cares with suicidal confidence
eliminate the first clause of your sentence and then look into jokermaxxing which is basically what you're describing
>have a borderline threating aura (not the word I'm looking for but I'll settle I'm bad with words), say little, and try to speak without speaking
I assume you're not Chad physically, so this will just come off negatively. The halo effect works in reverse. If you are going to dark-triad-maxx, you need to secure the right optics of your physical features first.