>>41312363
Goon while I pretend I’m paying games in call with my bf(he wants to fuck a real woman)
Iwnbtt btw

It’s literally impossible anyway
On hrt for a couple years
I’m still male
Always will be
I’m not farming validation I’m legit asking why the fuvk is my brain like this.
Therapy is failing
I’m just tired. All my trans friends abandoned me. I have a cold and crappy fwb, who sees me as his practice hole. ThTs my only friend.
and yet I keep trying to appeal to this idea that if I get the perfect hormone cocktail the perfect haircut the perfect surgery abd the perfect idk life I’ll finally feel like myself. But I’m not a girl.
I never was. How the fuck do I stop this lie. At least real trans people have something to latch on. An identity that exists. I suffer alone.
They threw me out. Because they knew I wasn’t like them.