It's deeply and intrinsically shameful to allow yourself to be conquered by another man. You know in your gut that giving in to your gay urges will debase you and strip you of any self respect or dignity you once had. Once you're a faggot, no one will ever take you seriously, genuinely love you, or want be around you.

My father pretends to love me, but he knows I'm bisexual, and I'm sure he wishes I was dead. My brother pretends to love me, but I know he thinks I'm just a weird faggot now. I've confronted him about it and he pretends it's not a big deal, but I'm a fucking FAG now, and no one will ever truly think of me as anyone worth loving or caring about. Everyone secretly hates queers, but they'll smile and pretend it's okay that you think penises are sexy, when you KNOW they see you as less than even a flea.