sounds cute to me. i'd suck destiny off. we could take turns. i'd wear a cute little faggy maid outfit just for him <3

You know, I found this book.
The Underground Man.
It basically sums up what our relationship was.
I think I learned where I fucked up in it too, after all these years.
When you pushed me away the first time, I should have acknowledged what you were doing as a self-destructive behavior. Before anything bad happened. The very first time. I should have accepted it and acknowledged that for what it is.

I think we're both underground men at this point, but I think originally, before I went off the deep end, and made the big mistakes.

I think I was Liza.

I love you, and I'll always love you. It won't ever change. I'll wait until I'm dead.