>Born an eccentric who can't fit in
>Deeply fearful of what others think
>Avoids self-expression
>Breaks and becomes more idiosyncratic
How is this even possible? What caused me to be this way?

>>82268020
https://voca.ro/1aG2jee7NJTU

update 2: I got another seat but now I seat next to 2 adult women talking about some fucking arab they need to save money to visit or something
well this makes me want to vomit rather than warming my heart, putting my earphonerinos back in for now

What are some vidya games that you see an image of and can hear?

How do I get over victim complex?
Everything feels bad right now. If I focus on being productive, invasive thoughts creep in and I lose concentration. I know there is nobody to blame, so I guess the blame becomes self-guilt. If someone tells me my strengths I don't believe them. I'm hypervigilant on people's social performance and I get envy of them.

I feel way too alien to be liked by anyone. It feels deserving and justified that people should not approach me when I'm feeling like this. I wish I could rely on anyone to help me but it's nobody's responsibility to help me, yet I don't feel in the right state of mind to pull myself by the bootstraps somehow. Just doing a routine is a routine, it's not pleasurable.