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schizoid is hell. i dont get too experience any fun
i long for the day that i die everytime i try to pursue a hobby or interest, the anhedonia kicks in and i just give up i do believe my schizoid tendencies give rise to some amount of creativity though, since i spend a lot of time daydreaming occassionally i'll get some ideas for music, art or computer programming.

heres the schizoid test: https://www.idrlabs.com/schizoid-personality-spectrum/test.php

heres a soundtrack i made:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-dV-l6A67U