My boyfriend wants me to be clingy and obsessive but last time I was like that with someone he harassed me in secret for months and recruited people for a hate chat and kept acting like I was a big evil abuser just for being a orbiter he didnt want, so I learned to stop being clingy with anyone because I dont wanna be harassed just for being needy with someone who dislikes me.

Pic related is the e-boy i orbited, he said all those things all because I wanted to be in his life.

I love my boyfriend and he's helping me heal from the trauma and I no longer orbit the e-boy who hates me.
My boyfriend and I arent online only, he has visited me two times in person already. We both live in California.

Umm XD im spiraling again even doe i got a loving boyfriend who spoils me unconditionally.

I'm chickn but I'm a cis f not a trans woman or a man or whatever 4chan randos claim

Pic related was my abusive e-boy

I'm tired of men being pathetic and not raping me or abusing me fr. I wanted to fly out to my abusive e-boy and have sex with him and he could have tortured me irl but he didn't.

Chickn3@proton.me is my email if you wanna be my new abusive e-boy

Idkkk if anything im saying is making sense but I want to be kidnapped and tortured because im tired of terminally online men just saying bullshit to me online but not abusing me irl even doe I give them opportunities to. Sorry if I repeated myself in this post I'm just spiraling down again.

Men hated me even when I was young and a normal weight so dont tell me to lose weight and men will treat me better because men hated me irrelevant of weight

I want to cry because of a e-boy again I want to feel like cutting myself because a e-boy hates me deeply

If you hate me because of 4chan shit don't reach out. I want genuine hate. My abusive e-boy hated me sincerely.