>>82208466
pain indeed. i'm sorry.

>>82208468
sequence of unfortunate events

>>82208514
hit the nail on the head. i spiraled at the loss of someone really close to me and began burning down all my bridges and diving deeper into toxic substance abuse. none of it did well for my sleep patterns either. began to forget taking my meds regularly. now i'm twisting myself into something far uglier.

i think what sucks though is that i was doing really well. i was super strong, and eventually i will be again, just with a deep bitterness locked away. but i don't want to be that. i just want to be happy and strong, not strong and bitter. all because i lost a bunch of close people in rapid cascade.