>>76490567
>You don't go THIRTY THREE YEARS doing absolutely nothing to improve or live your life then suddenly recover when you're completely barren of any skills, and life experience, any confidence, any self-esteem, and do nothing but fixate and ruminate on how I've wasted my entire life.
As someone who was, and probably, partially still is in your situation, just a year older - it gets better. It gets better the moment you stop feeling bad for yourself and start acting. By killing yourself you deprive the world of you and let me tell you, the world, the people inhabiting it need you, you just don't know it. You're depriving yourself of all the wonderful things you still can experience if you just stop being afraid of life and failure. You still can find a girl, friends, a better job, have a fuckton of life experiences you missed on earlier. You just have to start trying. If i can manage to come to life, so can you. It's hard, it really is, but it's possible.

I'm crying for you, twin, and i don't care how gay it sounds, because i was in the same dark place, but we can't just raise our hands and give up, the God has a special plan for us, we just don't know it yet.