>>40887378
Its a number of things.
On the one hand, when you get really intimate with somebody on a spiritual level, its hard to hide shit.

On the other hand, she's put in WAY more effort than what would have been necessary to just keep me happy and string me along.

And on the other other hand, she's also been helping me to develop in such a way that I'm able to resist her a lot more, which would be directly counterproductive to her trying to exploit me.

So yeah, I donno, you just live the life and the reasons to feel good about it pile up.