>>33626052
Not really, I don't care too much about other people's perception on my end, but people liking me makes life for people around me nicer and it makes life for me easier, so it's obviously preferred.
>What makes people upset?
I don't fit their mental image of me I think.

Some examples

My Dad expects me to be strong and healthy and driven like him, so he can't accept that a chronic health condition might've gotten in the way, it must be that I'm just not driven enough. It's not that I healed from 3 years of constant physical pain but rather me just finding my drive like he envisioned.

Girls that are interested in me IRL or fucking loser White guys trying to play tough see my features that can be both interpreted at South European and as Middle Eastern or Balkan, so they treat me like a neanderthal to fulfill their chimp fantasies. Women with abuse fetishes or class clowns that want to see teachers suffer under niggers chimping out love that shit. The fact that I'm tall and hit the gym doesn't help that fact. This one time a drunk retard with a glass bottle in his hand tried starting a fight when I was out with a friend, and he slapped me. I deescalated the situation, I wasn't healthy and in no need to risk a bottle getting smashed over my or my friend's head. I think he considers me a pussy for that to this day. I acted in a way that I preferred over the way someone else wanted and I regret it once again. Being physically hurt would've been worth not losing that friend, I really like the guy (platonically). I'm a nerd that watches anime and reads up on fandom wikis for days on end and wants a virgin wife that goes on cosplay conventions with him, I'm a common loser piece of shit that should live and die as a retarded autistic incel but for some reason everyone wants me to be someone great and expects me to be so. I fucking hate it. I wasn't made for this life or these expectations.