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>site full of a pedophiles and terrorists
I'm not implying I'm deranged or in need to dish out damage to society (at least not directly on an individual end for the most part, you need a systematic approach to truly have lasting change), I'm saying I just want to be myself but doing so never works out because nobody is like me. Terrorist groups have an ideological and often ethnic bond, pedophiles have each other in their little online bubbles, I don't have anyone I can be myself with without losing the other person. Worst of all is that these people seem to find lovers that tolerate them for who they are without issue. I saw a documentary about this one serial pedo in the Philippines when I was like 13-14 and he had a wife that helped him find victims by luring them in. And to this day I feel an insurmountable amount of envy towards that man. I'm not a piece of filth like he is, I'm hotter than he is and I can offer more to someone than he can. And yet he had a partner in crime that loved his authentic self.