>>41010630
>I've only got memory problems and brain fog.
I hear that a lot, especially when trauma is in the mix (ofc that doesn't have to mean anything, I can't stress enough how not qualified I am).
>I was talking about the onset of the "disease" with that, but you could say that some traumatic events happened.
Yes, I am trying to get a feel for what "caused" it. There must have been a key event of some sort that triggered it, I would think. And that person and whatever they did might be a key in all this. Perhaps resolving these things will help.
>this honestly almost unfroze my emotions a month or two ago.
>Like, I was thinking about my best friend from childhood, and when I felt a small twinge of emotion, I would double down and try to remember some other stuff about him, and whatever small speck of emotion I felt, I would hone in on that and magnify it.
Oh, this is actually a major breakthrough though, isn't it? Of course there was a setback that you couldn't let yourself experience it properly when you had it but it means you had access for a moment. Is there something you used in the past to trigger emotions that worked reliably? Music, films, books, could even be scents or other sensory experiences.
>Unfortunately, I didn't have the house to myself that day and it would've been terrible if I screamed or burst into tears or something
Is it okay to ask whether you feel safe at home? I ask because you said you couldn't let yourself be heard crying, essentially.
>>41019981
hah, the "HEY" I posted when I caught the thread on page 10. How are you, Anon?
>>41016517
>thank you for this list i never rlly look at it but it gets tedious doing the same to do lists once a week
It is, the good news is that you can shorten it with some habituation, over time. That and automation, if you like technical solutions (for example a calendar that auto-generates certain events)