>>41013693
>How do I restore my drive, ambition and vertility?
>3 of Wands rx, 10 of Wands rx, Page of Swords, Temperance, 4 of Cups rx, The World rx
Alright, alright, alright, Nine McConaghuey for the ride!
Whenever I spot too many reversals in a spread, it's a sign of energetic misalignment among the involved parties. However, I wonder if by "vertility" you meant "vitality," which would make even more sense in relation to the imbalance I'm spotting. So you've been carrying too much weight, more than you can handle and pushing forward, stretching yourself too thin in hopes that you'd finally reach the alignment you're seeking. But these burdens shall be laid down for the time being, and you should look inwards, not scattering your energy all over the place because of the obligations you have to fulfil.
To restore that, you need to bring a sense of curiosity and openness again, as if you were relearning a language you haven't spoken in a long time. Yet this requires you to temper yourself; nothing good is attained by rushing the results. Be patient with your own alchemical transmutation here, we can't turn shit into gold, but it would certainly make a good fertiliser if used in the right way. A Voice says: Forged by Fire, Tempered by Water. Wuwei.
Stillness can be your friend or enemy here, but I can see you're already waking up and willing to make a positive change, even if it's not complete yet; a change is still a change, no matter what. I wish you all the best! <3

>>41013761
Aye, darling, let me take you to therapy and cure that Oedipus complex out of you.

>>41013821
Jukebox: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6rz6D787n0U
"8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
1 Peter 5:8

>It takes strength to admit weakness.
I'm no longer ashamed of the chinks in my armour, but I use them to be reminded of my flawed nature and how much I need to improve.