>eating out w a group
>waitress takes our order
>all the men get called sir
>all the women get called ma'am
>she turns to me last, hesitates, and says "what would you like my love?"
i really really need to kill myself

Sometimes i try to talk to my girlfriend about dysphoria and she just says pat until i stop talking about it

one year of hrt and my transition completely failed because im too stupid and lazy to put in any effort
sincerely going to kill myself if anybody would like to push me over the edge