>>715484704
GOD

I'm scared that I will never settle down with a family and kids, I want to get married and have kids one day, but I'm 20, I have not had a successful long term relationship since I was 11, that one lasted till I was 14 but I have not had one since, I have dated many, but not for more than a year at a time. Is it too late for me to find the one, I know it probably isn't but it feel like it is, all my peers had/have long term, loving relationships but i find it so hard, it's hard to put yourself out there. I tried dating apps but its horrible, I only have success on fucking grindr, but I've never met up with anyone on there, and I cant stand the hookup/cheap sex culture. Is this really what it's like being an adult?

i wish i had new friends to play swf with
being killer is lonely and brutal sometimes
survivor is boring, but catching up with buddies in a call while playing games is something i really miss