Every day I swing wildly between feeling really lonely and touch starved and feeling overwhelmed by the presence of other people, to the point that I'll fantasize for several hours at a time about fleeing into the middle of nowhere or escaping my body to roam as a disembodied spirit. Sometimes the switch happens multiple times in one day. I have a collection of images with no people in them that I like to open and flip through to calm myself down when being around people - at work, in public, visiting home, whatever - gets to be too much. I'm kind of a fan of the whole liminal space thing because it scratches that itch. Look at this weird poolroom thing that seems to go on forever, isn't it comfy? Wouldn't you like to lay back in the dimness and listen to water dripping somewhere far off? It's dysfunctional as hell and as I get older while remaining alone the loneliness gets worse but the type of escapism I engage in when I do this serves as enough of a balm to keep me going without changing my life for another couple days.