I've gotta stop going on here. Seeing big dicks posted on here daily / small dick demoralization threads has to be a form of digital self harm at this point. I genuinely would give up my current life, give up all my wealth, lose all my connections if it meant getting a big dick at this rate. Nothing I do makes me feel like a man because I'm a dicklet. I've slept with one woman and I could tell she didn't enjoy it at all because I was a virgin and had a small dick. There's not really any cope for it either. Penis lengthening surgery would just give me a pencil and permanent erectile dysfunction. You're either born with it or you're not, and it seems like the majority of guys with big dicks just exude big dick energy in addition to having the tool to do well in bed. Women can smell it. Every whore on the internet just openly admits they drool over big dicks (and whores speak out loud what that vast majority of women think but don't say). Any woman I'd get with would resent me for being unable to sexually fulfill her. I could cuck myself and let this hypothetical woman see other men, but I know it would destroy me and besides, that doesn't solve the core issue of wanting to be the one to be sexually desired and in turn fulfill someone's sexual needs. There's genuinely nothing quite as soul crushing as being a man with a small dick. Women complain about beauty standards and the like all the time, but there is ALWAYS a subset of men out there who like whatever look a woman's got going on, be that anorexic, fit, chubby, small tits, big tits, innies or arby's, bush or no bush. There is no one who actually prefers small dicks. Average, maybe, if they have a really tight pussy, but never small. I just wish I could be a sexual being but genetics played a cruel joke on me. At this point, let chad thundercocks have all the sex in the world if it means the future generations of men never have to deal with this shit.

i went on tinder a few months back to get laid just so i could say i wasn't a virgin before i hit 20. matched with three girls, first two didnt respond back. third was fat, cute-ish face, and good personality.
we hit it off well, went on a few dates, found that I genuinely liked her as a person. lost my virginity to her, didn't mind that she had a few partners before me because the excitement of getting into my first real relationship with someone i truly connected with made me blind.
Now a couple months in I'm realizing that I was a rebound for her following a breakup with her ex and then a chad who fucked and dumped her. I was just the scraps, someone to fill her hole for a night and make her feel better about herself. She basically directly admitted that I ended her hoe phase because I was "so kind."
I don't doubt that she loves me now because she is 100% BPD and is INSANELY attached to me. Issue is i've just lost so much respect and attraction for her thinking of how she slutted herself out for fucking crumbs of attention, and I'm mad at myself for being one of the cucks willing to give it just so I could lose my virginity. It wouldn't be so bad to me if she wasn't so fucking pathetic about it all. A whimpering little girl desperate for male validation that I "fixed". It makes me sick.

How common is this sentiment? I know theres gonna be some selection bias here because, you know, fucking R9K, but oh well.
I don't necessarily mind body count just by itself. If a woman has slept with 3-5 guys but each time it was her giving genuine effort to be in a relationship with them and it didn't work out for whatever reason, fine, I can understand that. Hell, if a woman decides that she wants to remain single and just goes to the bar and sleeps with the hottest guy there she can, but she does it knowing it is just to satisfy her sexual needs, I wouldn't be thrilled to date her, but I could understand, because I would do the same if I was handsome enough to do that with women.
What I cannot accept is women who sleep around with no self-respect for themselves. Who throw themselves at the first person who will make them feel good about themselves by offering their body in exchange for a night of being seen as valuable, only to be thrown away first thing in the morning. There is nothing more sickening to me than that. I cannot respect someone who doesn't respect themselves. Even if they don't do it anymore, it still disgusts me and I cannot look at them the same.
Anyone else feel similarly?