>>82166464
And now we have gotten to the root and the real question you're trying to answer. Very common and relatable feeling. I could day I have same dilemma in my life every day as do most anons here. There's a reason so many people are addicted to television, social media, videos games, anime, drugs/alcohol, work/jobs, junk food etc to cope and pass the time. Life is boring humans created ALL of this vast amounts of entertainment and activities exactly because of that reason. We're bored. Why else do you think every craftsman toils away in his shop after work wood working or building cars or blacksmithing or whatever. Why people cook elaborate dishes and culinary craft. Why nerds spend enormous amounts of time figuring out complex math or building electronics. Thing is everybody's brain is different you have to find what holds your attention for yourself. I can't sit and obsess over math problems or sports teams so I have to look for other pass times. Same goes for you nobody can give you the answer because they don't know your exact brain and tendencies you have to find out what works for yourself. It's a luxury problem because modern civilization has made staying alive easy enough.