>>34267881
Not 30 (27) but I feel like I'll be reaching it soon, in spite of what picrel says.

The Last 5 years I've been trying to fix my life after my parents separated while also caught between two consecutive mid-life crises. 20-22 I wound up working a lot to get my sister through college. 22 onward to present I've worked part time after part time until I got myself fired to collect unemployment which worked in my favor. Now I'm currently awaiting an interview for a possible assistant manager position before I go back to college myself to get my CS degree to go into Cybersecurity. Especially after managing to luck out with getting a mentor.

On a personal note, I've grappled with intimacy issues in terms of looking or trying to look attractive and also suffered severe social isolation by going to a catholic school. In short, a lot of bullshit forced me to grow up fast and make me too self-aware for my own good. I feel like my impression on relationships have soured to the point where I can't just make myself horny or imagine being riled up. Being in NY or NYC also doesn't help out of a cosmic stroke of bad luck being next to a hodgepodge of an elitist bougie and immigrant pigsty when people aren't one of the same mine.