>>34267881 (OP)
32m turning 33 this year.
In high school I got along with everyone but instinctively avoided meeting people out of school even when invited because I was scared it was a trap of some sort or I'd make a fool of myself.
After that all those relationships disappeared once I finished school. College was the same I made friends in class but never anything real.
I've had a lot of internet relationships over the years but with internet relationships the girl will always disappear or crash out and abandon you the moment she has a bad day irl or finds someone she finds more interesting. I've always been obsessively loyal and idk, casually clingy(?) so I think that makes women less interested as they find out they're the most important thing in your life. Like it's really easy to make friends for me or get along with girls but I seem to consistently fail at making them develop long-term romantic feelings for me. They'll develop a short term crush, or at least say they do, maybe just from receiving attention and affection that they don't normally get, and then it fades as she gets busier in real life I guess I'm too boring idk.
Now I'm a hikkiNEET with plenty of money and no social circle being a NEET in your 30's fucking sucks ass no one ever wants to talk even online because they're always at work or school.
On top of all that 4chan my internet home has been taken over by chuds and normalfags that ruined every board so even making fellow weirdo weeb friends is really hard. /soc/ basically just exists for normies to find hookups, anyone that actually enjoys the things 4chan was made for(anime, games, weird hentai, japanese culture, touhou) is seen as an outcast. especially if you're not obsessed with right-wing /pol/tard culture wars. /v/ hasn't been about video games since the 00's. /jp/ is just a board for gooners these days. It's all so sad.
Thanks for reading my blog.
if any femanons want to take pity on this socially isolated neet my discord is: mewstech