>>23175014
yeah, picrel would be totally awful if it happened to me im just quaking in my boots jackboots rn

I had a pretty shit upbringing... mom was a mentally ill druggie, very neglectful and sometimes violent. My big brother was my real caretaker and shielded me from most of mom's abuse, especially the sexual abuse as she started using him as a dildo whenever she got "lonely"/horny.

The first few times we tried to tell others, the abuse got swept under the rug. Wasn't until mom forced my brother to knock her up that we were finally removed and put into foster care.

At that point, me and my brother were already very emotionally codependent on each other. Thankfully we were able to stay together in the system, but a lot of the less-than-stellar transient homes we found ourselves in just exacerbated our reliance on each other.

And at that point, not only was my brother kinda sexually screwed up by the abuse, but I was hitting puberty, and figuring out that I was gay, and had a huge crush on my brother. Though he was reluctant at first, he eventually let me get in his pants, and our relationship turned heavily sexual.

If anyone had ever caught us (and thank god they didn't) they probably would've assumed he was molesting me just based on the age difference. But in truth I was usually the instigator, and he felt guilty about going along with it... so in a way I was the one "molesting" him.

This just got more intense when he turned 18 and my brother took formal custody of me. With just the two of us living on our own the sex intensified a lot, and I went pretty overboard trying to make it overtly romantic since I was obsessed with him. Led to a lot of angst and drama since he still felt guilty and wanted us to move towards a more normal relationship, even though he also was pretty addicted to the sex and intimacy.

Surprising number of brotherfuckers in here. Guess I'll throw in my story too.
>be mostly straight, but with a small bi streak
>younger brother is fully gay
>as teenagers, I'd sometimes catch him 'mirin me
>secretly enjoyed the attention, even though it made me feel guilty and insecure
>so I took it out on him by being a bully
>fast forward several years, we're in our 20s
>going through a rough breakup with this girl I'd been seeing for 3 years
>brother is hanging out and drinking with me, trying to cheer me up
>end up talking about sexuality and shit
>I've got kind of a "fuck it I'm tired of women" attitude
>end up admitting that I think I might be a little into guys too
>he's not surprised at all
>tells me that he got a lot of mixed signals off me back when we were teens
>I didn't realize how obvious I had been
>apparently he'd seen right through my projection lol
>even admits that he was sometimes intentionally pushing my buttons cause he thought it might eventually push me edge into fucking him
>this leads into us awkwardly talking about the apparently mutual attraction we had for each other when we were younger
>I jokingly say that it's too bad I had so many hangups, cause it would've been a lot easier to deal with our teenage hormones if we'd just banged each other
>he fires back something like "well, so what's stopping us from messing around now, since you're sick of girls anyway?"
>he says it like he's joking for deniability
>but at this point the convo was pretty charged and horny so I know he's not
>and after a bit more awkward back-and-forth I find myself nervously getting my cock out as he gets on his knees in front of me
>proceed to get the best BJ of my life from my little brother
>feel a wave of immediate post-cum regret
>but then like 2 hours later we start playing grab-ass again and this time I end up fucking him too
Been hooking up with him ever since. Still the only guy I've done stuff with... so far.