>>938389245
i mean,
- i slept in the same bed with her several times and thought it meant she was into me. i'd say that's pretty humiliating.
- then i asked her out and she told me she thought i was gay
- then i kept being friends with her (cringe)
- i let her convince me to dress as a girl for a halloween party (pic unrel) where her boyfriend was there
- and she introduced me with a feminine version of my deadname.

but i don't think anything tops her seeing me half-naked after a year or so on hrt, staring at my crotch and asking if i'd had "the surgery" - the way her eyes widened when i said no.

so many things it honestly does not seem real lmao

>>938389249
honestly thats kind of the ideal. i'm hoping if i start getting out and fucking men i'll sort of just settle into being a woman and forget about my past because when i think about it it makes me sad. i might even get srs just so i don't have the constant reminder.

>>938389259
i don't know that i was necessarily groomed tbh. some part of me wanted this, although it's definitely hotter to pretend otherwise. but honestly i do have a lot of regrets about not even trying to be a man.