People and their feelings really are complicated, I'm telling you anons.
Yesterday evening, a friend of mine messaged me, saying that when we first met she was really attracted to me (I had seen that and I reciprocated the attention even though I've been in a relationship for a long time). She has then gotten in a relationship with one of my very good friends, and I'm happy for them ! It also helped me not do something stupid with her, I know myself...
But yesterday she told me that she was in a difficult situation regarding their relation because she still has feelings/attraction towards me, but her boyfriend is really opposed to an open relationship, as is my girlfriend.
Basically we both want each other but our partners are not open to that (which is completely understandable), so we just hurt when we see each other, because we respect our partners choices.
Anyway, I think my relationship is coming to an end after 7 years (in good terms, but we have different goals and aspirations in life), so I think if it does end I'll just become a man slut or a shut in because I'm tired of dealing with feelings. Thanks for reading my blog /bigen/