>>83023729
>Some people just have a hard time moving on.
That's true. It took about 18 months after my friend died before I was back to normal again, and that first month was incredibly difficult. So I imagine it'll be similar.
>This is a common thing to see them for, so hopefully used to cases like yours and can give some good advice quick
I've asked for someone familiar with BPD, since I figured they'd have an easier time understanding what was going on.
>it isn't cheap.
It sucks that this stuff costs so much. I was fortunate enough to find one at about half the rate as usual - I think it's supported by the church here, since they do a lot of charity work.

>>83023821
>glad you're looking for professional help now
I was already getting some with work, but my next appointment is about 3 weeks away and I honestly don't think I could wait that long. It's only been 5 days and it feels like 3 months have passed.

>>83023917
>do you have some appointments already planned?
No but I should find out when I can get some by the end of the week.

>>83023923
>it's totally okay at least she isn't replying so she isn't saying anything bad
That's true. She hasn't blocked me either which makes me wonder if she's seen it and if she's still alive and out of hospital..
>everything you did til now is just normal for someone in this situation.
That's reassuring. I'm very worried that I'm just being obsessive. I know I've disappointed my sister by failing to drop her completely and doing the complete opposite...

Thank you for the kind words, everyone.