I've literally tried to transition and took hrt so I know that it's not right for me, but it still hurts when I think about wishing I could become a woman. Transition just doesn't make me enough of a woman. It's some in between thing. Passing is just not good enough. I could "pass" but not wholly and completely. No trans person really can. It's just not worth it for someone that can live as a man. It's a little depressing, but I can live as a man. It's familiar and comfortable and simply who I am.