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>I often went to generals of my current interest
Ah, that makes sense. I did that a little bit in another general here on /lgbt/ but that bridge is burned now... Don't really know where else to go right now. I feel like the rest of 4chan is too redpilled for me at this point. Haven't ventured out of /lgbt/ for years tbqh
>I visited him with my mom in my early 20s, turned out he lived in the Caribbean. One hell of a vacation.
Damn, that's wild. Sounds like a very cool experience.
>that's a shame. No mail, phone number..
I always delete phone numbers after a while... maybe that's a bad habit.
>try gratitude journaling
I already write a journal, and I try to note the things I'm grateful for. But honestly, journaling is more about forgetting things than remembering things for me, if that makes sense.
>many small things do something to the human mind if seen as part of a bigger picture, which we can't if we don't collect them
I am tired of living for the little things. I mean, I do it still... I love pens and paper, stationery in general for example. But somehow, living for Leuchtturm notebooks and novelty ink feels bleak. I wish there was a bigger task.
>Do you feel more aloof? More.. afraid? Maybe more alien?
Maybe more alien... I can't really explain it well. I guess I am quite afraid of being ridiculed IRL. I dunno
>This is how interactions should be. We engage with one another within the realms of our comfort, taking interest in what the other has to say.
That's just not what social interactions are like IRL. It always turns into some stupid game of dominance and submission. I am not even necessarily bad at that game, I just hate playing it.
Enjoy your vacation, anon. It sounds like you've earned it.
