my father screwed up my life
Excuse my English, it's not my language.
Hi, I'm a very young girl and I have an anonymous Discord account where, well, I let people insult me because I developed some kind of affiliation or something after using the internet for as long as I can remember. I don't know if that's the result, but oh well, whatever.
The thing is, three months ago, someone sent me a friend request. We don't share a server, so they knew my username.
This person became my "teacher" and usually insults and degrades me "mentally" on a daily basis.
Well, I have a very good relationship with my father. One day he left his phone in the bathroom. I walked in and Discord was open on his phone.
My father is the Discord user I've told all my secrets to and for whom I've done very degrading things.
That really depressed me. This happened a few days ago, and now I don't know what to do. He doesn't know that I know. I'm deeply upset and don't know what to think. I only live with my father; My mother died during my birth. I know she's not a bad person, but what I did, what she forced me to do on Discord, is crazy.
She talked about everything, even wanted me to kill myself.
What should I do?