im srry for posting how im feeling online where u cant see it instead of talking to u like u want. i dont think u rlly understand always, i cant talk honestly or openly abt how unstable i am without you getting worried and upset it makes me feel awful to talk abt myself to u or scared that ur going to call someone again. its easier to have u as the place i am nice and positive and random ppl that dont like me online as the place where i talk abt how constantly miserable i actually feel because i dont think im worth worrying abt rlly. i think thats my fault and rlly immature and im srry.