>>41031097
You are doing great. Don't you worry! Your standards for yourself are likely out of whack because, on some level, you treat yourself as inferior to others. Nobody worth spending time with could possibly agree with you on that outlook! You are afraid of making mistakes, essentially. Let's start with a simple exercise: I want you to imagine two inexperienced dancers, you're one of them. Your assigned training partner steps on your foot. You vocalize, take their foot off yours, and apologize. I want you to take a moment to reflect upon how this event would affect your opinion of them as a person. Would you even remember it the next day? Now compare, you stepped on their foot. Would you be upset with yourself? Would you remember this moment for weeks to come? Reflect upon this for a moment. Could it be that you would judge yourself much much more harshly than you would have the other person? I would like you to try and articulate the things you think people may judge you for. We can dismantle them like this. Rationalizing won't fix the emotional bit but it is a first step.
>I think I found something good via my therapist
Perfect, you did well Anon!
>>41033105
I'm proud of you, Anon. It's not easy, and yet you persevere.
>>41034559
Congratulations! What a wonderful number.
>Shit got incredibly bad with my family to the point where I completely cut them off
I am sorry to hear. It's no wonder you feel numb after what must have been an incredibly emotionally taxing mess to sort out. It doesn't mean that it's over, or that you can't recover from it.. but one thing after another. With your family out of the picture, do you have other people in your life that support you? What were your general circumstances like?
>>41039739
If you want we can talk about it a little, weight loss I mean.