>>42549665
I've had similar experiences at cons, which is part of the reason I didn't go this year, and I think what hits hardest for me is the thought of "If I can't fit in here, do I really fit in anywhere? Do I belong anywhere?" and I hate having to grapple with that thought most times that I go to cons.

I'm gonna pick myself back up and go next year though. I regret not going this time because, at the end of the day, I think it's better to go and have the experience than not. I can't expect to come away with new, lifelong friends, but I can just try to relax and enjoy myself and hopefully do it in the presence of people who are chill with hanging out with me too.