>>82911237
Well OP, idk what to say, it's been a very sad week, I've been kind of "anhedonic" on most of the days of this week, very reminiscent of a certain period too, that now kinda haunts me and I feel it will be like that for a good while, but it's okay. there's nothing I can do except live by and escape sometimes. it's a weird feeling
>rest
I've spend some almost sleepless nights as this month has gone on. and when I sleep I always wake up without feeling rested, even tho I dream
>festivity
It's been years since I stopped caring about those, but I usually use October as a month to play horror games

>>82897010
>I think you're just on the first phase of reflecting on existence, to be honest
I would like to know what I'm missing, kinda. If by the lack of "ok" you mean it outside the world then idk, the ideas of what's there that are imposed by most religions and philosophies even, can be somewhat hopeless if you look enough into them, and analyze them from your nature.