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Make it happen! I am sick of my hair, I want to chop it off. I only keep it because it is pretty much my last shared (?) of being trans. I am tired of being trans, I wish I never brain-washed myself. I can't cut my hair of now as it would be embarrassing defeat, and it might be a conserning change (?) of character that could get me reported. It just always gets in my way. I will probably chop it on the day of the attack. My breath is shaky, I haven't been able to take a full breath in month. I am ready to die! [text written with black pen starts] Well, I am here, at the gun store. LEt's see how it goes! By the wan (? nen), I got a new pen, hehe! Sharpy S teal (? jel / jeal? can't read it properly) is the best pen. I got my new won (?) in a sexy rose gold to match the journal! God fucking damn it! I knew it was to good to be true. I need to obtain a permit to purchase through Minnesota to...