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>Have you ever looked into AvPD?
I did a bit and from what I've gleaned, it seems to be people who have a very strong fear and avoidance of of other people and relationships due to low self esteem. I have very low self esteem and very much dislike myself, it's not so much social anxiety. I would say this applies to friendships and things to do with coworkers, but not so much in romance. I'm incredibly clingy in romantic relationships and insecure constantly about how they feel about me or what they think of me.
>I'm definitely curious if the attachment related resources are gonna be of any help.
I don't want to sound dramatic but I'm almost certain my ex who comes on here wrote some of the resources in the OP (at least in the other anons advice part) and it made me go schizo for a bit and so I'm scared to look at the resources in the OP again. She recently blocked me on everything a week ago, long story I don't want to get into but it was bad.
>>What about the town you live in? Do you generally feel safe there?
I live in the suburb of a very friendly lgbt city, but I used to get a fair amount of harassment from people when I left my apartment, I think it's because the suburb I'm in is just north of a very rural area and they come up here for groceries/restaurants/medical services/etc. It's worse in boymode, a fair bit less bad in standard girlmode, and I haven't experienced it yet since being a lot more bold with girlmoding. There's a lot lot lot of LGBT people here though.
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