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Seeing now your perception of my supposed past, I clearly see that things were bound to end in failure. The foundation of trust you had in me was always shaky, filled with what I believe are likely misunderstandings. I've always been blunt, perhaps a tad aggressive in my past life which earned me my "reputation", but I've always been an open book.
But I understand. You were always someone highly on guard. You asked me on more than one occasion what I thought about you, perhaps as a way to seek validation. I told you that while you have a strong personality that might get you in trouble, I respect that you're someone knowledgeable that's good at what they do. You had been nothing but helpful and kind to me in particular. I meant everything I said to you back then. Even now amidst this ordeal, I feel we remain incredibly similar.
I've thought about this for more days than I'd like to admit. I told myself it's not a big deal, but truthfully I was very hurt when I realized it was likely you. I wanted to brush it off as the usual shitposting, but things were becoming strangely specific. And then when I thought about asking directly, I realized you had already deleted me and erased our history.
But I don't blame you. I understand why it would be easy to believe it was all me, especially when the foundation we stood on was shaky at best. I've admittedly had many moments too when I questioned my closest friends because I was convinced that it had to be them. Despite it all, I was somehow able to find peace with those rampant and invasive thoughts over time.
I can only hope the same truly happens for you. I still forgive you. I was never one to hold grudges against anyone. Unfortunately we may never speak again, but that's okay. I've accepted that this is how life is sometimes. You say that you wish I would have reached out to you, but you also had all the ways to reach out to me. Maybe all we needed was communication. I'd still love to see you again. Goodbye
