I'm turning 29 soon. The past 5 years have been spent in isolation working from home. No friends, no family, no group hobbies. I have a cute girlfriend and sometimes I wake up with an anxious mind and my first thought will be "it's such a mistake being with her", despite her being the kindest person I know. I don't want marriage because that would feel like closing a hermetic lid on social possibility.
I don't know how the other loners persist.
From what I gather, most neets live with their families, so they while they have few to no social connections, they have the comfort of parents being there... maybe I'm wrong, and there's a large portion living in debt without any guardians.
I have net worth of 200k usd, and I see how fast time flashes. I see the faces of grown adults when I look at children. I can see the faces of children when I look at retired adults.
Clutching grass as time drags us isn't right. How do you manage to let go, and how the fuck do we optimize this gift of life, cognizance, and financial knowledge we've been given? Also, where are all the irl friends?
