>used to paddle competitively
>kind of weird kid, around 14 years old, this one girl would tease me in particular
>that summer the team stays in a hotel for a regatta, the girls have their own rooms
>get a call from their room asking for me
>my fembully just says she wants to fuck me on a bear skin rug
>just shrug it off as her pulling a prank on me
>only realize decades later she was actually into me
Not that it changes anything, I wasn't really into her, but it really puts into perspective how fucked up I am that any sign of affection from a woman I immediately write off because of my self-preceived 'unfuckable' status. Thanks for reading my blog.
