I dont like oral sex. Neither giving or receiving.
Not gonna talk why I don't particularly like sucking dicks, but the thing that kills my pleasure as receiver is that - from sex I want maximum intimacy, interconnectedness, I want to melt into another being. And just looking at some man stimulating my clit ain't it. It is cold, distant, we barely touch each other. May as well just masturbate. It's such a waste of lover-time. I can wank my own clit just as well.

A good sex with someone you love is very energizing and life affirming. It won't solve your issues but it is a strong boost for daily life. Just random sex with whoever is not necessarily horrible, but it is just raw indulgence, like eating a whole stack of chocolates. Feels good in the moment and then after you cum you are full of lowkey regret and shame.