>forget I was on a work Zoom meeting
>head to /gif/ and start fapping
>I realize what's happening after a couple minutes and slam laptop screen
>4 missed calls from boss on cell phone
>get fired this morning
>wife still doesn't know
>go to the casino today to de-stress
>lost our rent money
bros, what the FUCK do I do now? I want to get a bottle of whiskey to calm my nerves, but I'm down to our last $40 in our account, and I still need to get my wife a birthday present tomorrow. Should I just kill myself?

I miss my therapist from college so fucking much. I feel like there's a huge hole inside my spirit every day. She was the first person I ever trusted. I feel anger at the world sometimes, and I know it's just because I miss her and there's nothing I can fucking do about it. I graduated, so there's no way to see her again since she's faculty.

Why couldn't my mom have been a better parent? I've considered signing up for another therapist so many times, but I scroll through the list of providers and just start crying because none of them are her.

What do I do bros? :(

>delete all social media
>friends forget about me and think I don't exist
It's all so tiresome