Worked in hospice care and also took care of both dying grandparents. Inevitably you're going to think about your mother and beg her to help you. It's the same every time I've seen it.
The elderly person is delirious, body shutting down, they just say "Mother, mother, mother." over and over again. I hope when you die you at least hallucinate her hugging you and promising to make it better.
