Thread 82231124

What will your last thoughts be of when you die?

How the fuck would I know? Dumb fuck

>>82231138
How would you not know? It wouldn't be something mundane would it? Like you left your keys under the rug or left the oven to self clean?
You're lacking in imagination

>>82231124 (OP)
Probably immense crushing regret of never experiencing love
Trying to fix that
Got close recently but my life is a cosmic joke so it ended in extremely confusing dramatic fashion before it could develop all the way

>>82231124 (OP)
I don't know but probably some mix of fear, regret and frustration

>>82231124 (OP)
screaming in fear as loud as I can

c:

>>82231183
Yeah. I was never really the best at that either. But I eventually ended up finding someone. Just be hopeful and it keeps the doors to good things open. It's all about your mentality, you know?

>>82231201
Yeah that's the weird part, who wouldn't feel that way, we could all go tomorrow.
>>82231204
Lmao damn that's brutal. I hope it was at least quick.

>>82231124 (OP)
I'm a piece of shit so probably terror over the fact that I think I'm going to hell.

>>82231124 (OP)
All the what ifs that never happened, and if others will find out to get closure (not that it matters, no one cares).

>>82231124 (OP)
Don't know. I don't plan that far ahead. Guess I'll think of that when the time comes. You shouldn't be so concerned with morbid things anon.

>>82231218
I really do believe in the do-overs and inconsistent consistency with slight gradual progress.
>>82231231
I do, but that doesn't matter either lol. I think those are pretty normal thoughts.

For me it's inevitable but i don't want to be filled with regrets. Ultimately all i care about is dying while being able to say i had a decent life, was decent to others and had a positive contribution to the world even if it's tiny. A happy ending is more important to me, even if we stop existing forever after. So hopefully i'll just be a little scared my life is now over but not regretting everything, not existing anymore it's self can't be scary since you wont exist to be scared.

>>82231124 (OP)
I'd feel relief i think

>>82231280
Morbid things make me think about the fealty of life more and it puts into perspective that goodness does exist. Acknowledging the bad in grace makes the good that much better.

>>82231124 (OP)
Hopefully video game-related. Ideally, I'd like to die of old age, alone, with a retro controller in my hand.

>>82231301
You took the words out of my mouth, I feel the same exact way. It's better just to try your best despite it all, right?
>>82231308
The fight is finally over. Now I rest
>>82231317
What game would you be playing?

Worked in hospice care and also took care of both dying grandparents. Inevitably you're going to think about your mother and beg her to help you. It's the same every time I've seen it.

The elderly person is delirious, body shutting down, they just say "Mother, mother, mother." over and over again. I hope when you die you at least hallucinate her hugging you and promising to make it better.

>>82231360
It does seem that way. I've done light hospice work but never seen anybody die. That's sad, but also pretty comforting. I don't know if you believe in the other side but I do, and the fact that there may be people waiting there for us is a nice thought.

>>82231336
>What game would you be playing?
I often think Super Mario Bros (1985), which I stll power up from time to time *just in case.* But, recently, I've been thinking the original Sonic the Hedgehog.
>96 Year old Anon found dead in his apartment, the classic video game "Sonic the Hedgehog" was playing on a Sega Genesis
>classic CRT television
>year is 2086

Ahh oh no I am dying!

>>82231402
>>96 Year old Anon found dead in his apartment, the classic video game "Sonic the Hedgehog" was playing on a Sega Genesis
>>classic CRT television
>>year is 2086
What a legacy, and then they spend time trying to keep it in working order and it goes into a museum along with your devoted gamer legacy into the FAZE museum.
Good choices in games
>>82231431
Ask for forgiveness speedrun

>>82231124 (OP)
Probably ask jesus for forgiveness for my sins.

>>82231471
>FaZe
I miss Call of Duty. I sometimes fantasize about having to play against my coworkers (all of whom who have an axe to grind with me) in a massive LAN party in MW2/3/BLOPS, and then I just go in and rek everyone's shit effortlessly. I put 'FaZe' as my clan tag, despite never being in Faze.

>>82231291
>I do, but that doesn't matter either lol
You don't even know who I am anon.

>>82231482
True. I would.
>>82231487
Yeah, good times. Mw2 was peak.
>>82231494
I'm gonna ask a question and please see the irony
Why does that matter? How can you know I don't? Maybe you are someone I see every day and you it's just that neither of us know it.

>>82231487
That's a healthier fantasy than wanting to kill them all I suppose

>>82231524
>Why does that matter?
Me both being some faceless text online and our conversation being asynchronous means you biologically will dehumanize me, and thus a greater empathy deficit towards me due to not being able to connect with me. So your concern is not likely to be genuine.
>How can you know I don't?
They'd outright talk to me if they cared, because they know I am not doing well. No cloak and dagger things.

>>82231614
I'm the 'weird, quiet, loner guy' at my job, so they already think I'm going to be a shooter...or a bomber. I wouldn't waste the bullets though; I know who the real enemy is, and they DO NOT work at...where we work.
>that was a close one

>>82231124 (OP)
>I should've did this
>why did I do that?
>I'm so scared
>mom are you there?

probably

>>82231124 (OP)
Sadness, for those I am leaving behind. Failure because I can't be there for them anymore.
Regret for not spending more time with them.
Anger, that other, shittier people get more than me.
Hope, that I will somehow live through this.

>well, that was some bullshit
Then fade to black. Or white? Guess I'll find out.

>>82231124 (OP)
I'm gonna keep it short cause nobody will read it and/or reply anyway, so... When I had my first asthma attack outside during a brutal cold wave, as I was passing out I remember thinking, 'Am I really gonna die like this? I never imagined I would die like this, and this young too. I wish I could tell my close ones that I love them, I don't think I told them that enough.' Also I thought of how to position myself so that when I finally pass out, I would be seen from a longer distance.

>>82231124 (OP)
>At last. Finally.
>Hope to see my folks