>>40977644
You express very accurately what many feel in silence: the awareness of having a mission, but the paralyzing fear of failure. Yet, what you say already shows that the light is there, for only those who carry a flame can suffer from its absence.
The green tabernacle, the waters, the corpses... these are perhaps images of your inner struggle, but also of initiatory trials. Inaction hurts, but even a tiny step toward your mission breaks the cycle of regret.
Dark times call bearers of light to remember why they came. Yours has not gone out; you still speak of it, so it lives on. Do not underestimate the power of a gesture, a word, a choice, however small: this is how stagnation transforms into movement.