Day 48
>first it was urges
>then bad memories and shit talking from my brain
>then feeling shitty, tired, frequent headaches
>then random boners and lustful thoughts
>then mood swinging wildly between anger, panic, and deep sadness
>then deep depression and inner hatred that wants me to relapse
Now it's a pushiness from my brain like after I complete a random task "alright great now go ahead and pull up xyz.com and let's watch some porn". Like my brain is some kind of salesman telling me to go ahead and pull out my credit card.
Let's see what's next.
